Monday, May 18, 2009

I Just Threw Away a Perfectly Good Cheesecake

About a million years ago (okay, it was probably closer to three or four) Devra and I went to Weight Watchers meetings together.

I think there are a lot of wonderful things about Weight Watchers. I find writing things down insanely helpful. I think weighing in in front of a stranger motivating. I have no idea why. And I think that going to meetings with a friend is a sure way to make sure you keep going and stick with the plan. At least somewhat.

There are reasons I don't do Weight Watchers anymore, but the number one reason is that they started charging for meetings that you missed. 

I think that is robbery.

There are also the time constraints. When is a meeting I can go to every week? Right now my life is too unpredictable to make that kind of commitment.

Okay, but none of these things are my point. My point is that I used to go to the meetings.

I think WW meetings are very helpful. I like knowing that other people are having the same struggles as me. Not so much that I like that other people are suffering too, but just feeling not alone makes me feel less crazy and less out of control.

My favorite part of the meetings are when the other people in your class give tips that have helped them.

And one time Devra said she threw away food.

She said she knew once the cookies were in the garbage can she would not touch them.

I remember thinking that it seemed extreme... sort of. But it works.

If I have a bag of Doritos in my house I will eat them. I cannot control myself around Doritos. I know this. If there is a bag of Doritos in the trash can it is no longer food. It is garbage.

Five minutes ago I threw away a cheesecake that only had one piece missing.

Part of me feels like I just threw a $20 bill in the rubbish.

Most of me feels proud that I didn't eat the entire cake by myself like I wanted to.

So thank you, Devra.

And please, nobody tell my husband.

I remember what Devra said she told her husband when he asked about the cookies. She told him she "disposed of them". She said her family just assumed she ate them, and that was fine with her.


S said...

It hurts my heart a little to think of cheesecake being thrown away, but you do what you have to do. I think throwing it away would be the only way I could stop myself from eating it all, too.

I am reminded of the Sex and the City episode where Miranda replaces sex with chocolate. She bakes herself a cake and can't stop eating it, so she throws it in the garbage. Then she calls Carrie and says, "I just needed to let you know that I am about to eat cake out of the garbage can." She finally puts herself out of her misery by squirting dish soap into the garbage.

catnip said...

Not too long ago I threw away most of a chocolate cake with coconut frosting. It was glorious but I was the only one in the house that liked it, and I was afraid I would eat the whole thing. Once I figured out how many calories were in it, it wasn't so painful to chuck it.

Now throwing away Doritos would be extreme pain. Chips of any kind are my trigger.

Anonymous said...

I have a REALLY hard time throwing away food, unless it's past the expiration date. And even then, I can't throw it away until the day AFTER it expires. Makes me feel too guilty. So good for you for having the strength to do that!

Lumpyheadsmom said...

Dude, you can call me next time and I'll come get it.


I'm not crazy, just well mixed! said...

My heart is angry with you. My former skinny self completely understands. The pregnant me just wants the cheesecake, especially since I've got to be this big anyway.

Give me a few months - I'll join you on the losing weight challenge.

Also, Matt says he would have relieved you of your burden had you just called.

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